Why

why do things have to be so difficult?

why does it seem like the smallest things are huge?

why do i feel so unhappy all the time?

why do things seem so perfect but do not feel perfect?

i know that i am not attractive anymore

i know that i am too sensitive at times

i feel unwanted

i feel worthless

i feel like i am missing something

i feel like someone hit the pause button on my life

i want happiness

i want love

i want marriage

i want babies

i want honesty

i want commitment

i want to be honest

why do i feel like being honest is not the way to go?

why?